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Damn show...

Supernatural is my damn show, and I can be mad at it, but I'm not breaking up with it, no matter how many times it breaks my friggin heart.

Spoilers for 7X18 under the cut. And lots of thought-process rambling.

Okay, I was a little upset with last week's episode. Don't get me wrong...I adored all but the last five minutes, h/c addict that I am. I might have had my hopes up...or down...with this show, I don't always know which is which.

But I really didn't like Sam's hell!angst getting whammied into Cas. (Who I didn't mind, btw! I was kind of surprisingly okay with seeing him back.)

Afterwards, I was mad...and weirdly, it hurt my feelings. I didn't even re-watch or look for promos. Yeah, I know...holding a grudge.

Instead, I watched Suits this week. And read Suits fic. And started watching a couple episodes of Game of Thrones. And thought, maybe I don't need this show any more. Maybe I've moved on....there are other fandoms. Maybe this is how you break up with a show you still love. You make yourself move on...read fanfic that doesn't star Sam and Dean.

So I decided that I would watch Friday's episode, but I wouldn't enjoy it much. It was just a filler and all. Maybe it'll be amusing - I'm not feeling well, so I'm staying home anyway...might as well stream the thing.

And it was mildly amusing. I didn't mind Garth. I didn't mind Sam being mentally intact as much as I thought I would. And then the boys were getting drunk and clinking glasses and waving swords, and that was kind of cool.

But when they started talking about Bobby and grief, it resonated. It hit me hard, how invested I am and am going to be until they turn out the lights. Suits (and White Collar and H50) is pleasant, but it is just not my show.

And then. That last scene. I cried.

Damn show.


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Mar. 31st, 2012 02:20 am (UTC)
Aw, I'm glad you're not breaking up with SPN. And yeah, I enjoy Suits and the fic for it but it just doesn't have the depth to be a main fandom for me. I'll read the hell out of any Suits h/c though because that's just the way I am. ;)
Mar. 31st, 2012 02:25 am (UTC)
I was just really mad, lol. I didn't even make my husband watch it again with me, which just shows them!

But yeah...only a show I love like Supernatural can get under my skin like that.

(Do you happen to know of any Suits rec sites? Because yeah... Suits h/c really works for me. :) I've read everything by Closer and ArsenicJade. "All In" is what made me start watching the show!)

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Mar. 31st, 2012 02:38 am (UTC)
Supernatural is my damn show, and I can be mad at it, but I'm not breaking up with it, no matter how many times it breaks my friggin heart.

Will that fit on a t-shirt? Because, hells yeah.
Mar. 31st, 2012 02:47 am (UTC)
I seriously think I'm all in until the very last episode, whenever that may be. (Not this year, please not this year!)

Mar. 31st, 2012 02:44 am (UTC)
Supernatural is my damn show, and I can be mad at it, but I'm not breaking up with it, no matter how many times it breaks my friggin heart.

Then, that last scene. I cried.

Damn show.

Mar. 31st, 2012 02:48 am (UTC)
*hugs you*

Hey, how did you feel about 7X17? Just curious... :)
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Mar. 31st, 2012 02:53 am (UTC)
I cried, too. Hand to the mouth, omg cried. I have MISSED HIM SO MUCH!

We can't leave. We love it too much. It owns us.
Mar. 31st, 2012 02:57 am (UTC)
I am actually kind of flabbergasted how much I miss him. Maybe because I'd written so much about him, I felt "close" to his character, second only to Sam&Dean, who of course count as a single character. ;)

Mar. 31st, 2012 03:03 am (UTC)
I was pretty meh through the whole episode (minus Mr. Fizzles, who was glorious) until that last scene. Then I shrieked and started crying. Totally worth it.
Mar. 31st, 2012 03:06 am (UTC)
I honestly think the fact that my expectations were low for this one worked in my favor. (Dean waving the sword around and almost hitting the civilian cracked me up. I also liked drunk Sam.)

But yeah...that last scene. Break my heart all over again.
Mar. 31st, 2012 04:04 am (UTC)
Supernatural is my damn show, and I can be mad at it, but I'm not breaking up with it, no matter how many times it breaks my friggin heart.

My sentiments exactly.
Mar. 31st, 2012 04:25 am (UTC)
Until the bitter end.... ♥
Mar. 31st, 2012 04:05 am (UTC)
Hi. Don't leave us. It wouldn't be the same :( I'm easy on the Show. Always have been. Because I live for those moments when Sam and Dean touch my heart. And there's usually one such moment every episode.

But I was sooo happy with the ending reveal and I was happy to be surprised. Well done, Show, for keeping it under wraps.

Think of it this way ... you can't be one of those that leaves Dean, too.

As for other fandoms. I tried watching Suits. It was meh to me. Okay for a legal drama but I honestly don't get shipping those two -- they seemed more friends than not.

I have gotten into Merlin (BBC show). And I have shipped those two leads. Lovely show if you haven't seen it. SyFy is airing it, but it's worth catching from the begining if you can download.

I've also gotten into Glee -- but only for a few characters. I did write two Glee stories (short pieces) and one Merlin fic. It's weird writing other characters. Well, those that don't look like Jensen or Jared, because my AUs are other characters :)

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Mar. 31st, 2012 04:27 am (UTC)
I'm generally easy on Show too, which is why it surprised me how put out I was by last week's episode. And I don't think I'm going anywhere. Last one to turn off the lights and all that. Besides, I only came to SPN during season 4, so I was late to the party anyway. :)

I enjoy Merlin. Don't watch Glee any more really. Fell head over heels for XMFC, don't ask why...great fanfic.

But SPN is really it for me. Sigh.

Now I just need to write some more. Resurrected John fic is calling me... :)
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Mar. 31st, 2012 05:43 am (UTC)
I feel much the same way, bb. Though I am OK with Cas taking some of Sam's damage, since it was largely his fault in the first place. I just want to know that Sam has all his memories, you know? He's fought so hard to integrate all the pieces of himself, I hat to see him losing them :(

I loved how hopeful Dean was for a moment - "you mean, maybe it's a haunted flask, maybe I'm just grieving like a normal person?" Oh, Dean.

Anyway, I am having some issues with this season, but yeah. It's still my show, and I'm not giving it up.
Mar. 31st, 2012 06:03 am (UTC)
I don't think we have any reason to believe Sam has lost his memories, so there's that. I just think Show has a very hard time digging itself out of holes of its own making. Hell, being one of them.

If you think about it, the fact that SPN is as good as it is, seven seasons in, is nothing short of miraculous. Most shows lose their footing after the first few years. They are still taking chances, and I love the boys. Yeah. I'm in. :)
Mar. 31st, 2012 06:52 am (UTC)
I'm pretty easy on my show too. Sometimes, I think it could do better but really, no other show makes me love it like this one. I know I will be with this show to the bitter end.
I had high hopes that Bobby's death was an hallucination on Sam's part but then last week kind of dashed that. lol I actually started to fall for the grieving like normal people explanation for a minute. And when Dean said, There you are, and walked over- I almost cried because I was expecting a hug. I love Bobby. I've missed him.

Oh girl! Game of Thrones! Two days! Season two starts sunday! It'll never replace Supernatural but I'm likng it.
Mar. 31st, 2012 02:48 pm (UTC)
Yes to all this!

I have really FELT Bobby's death. So when I saw him... it was just such a huge emotional whomp.

I've only watched three eps of Game of Thrones in itunes. Worth continuing, I take it?

Mar. 31st, 2012 06:57 am (UTC)
It's a weird love affair with this show, I agree. Everytime I think, "Okay, I'm probably moving on from Show," I keep coming back, week after week. It has a lot of facepalm worthy moments (especially this last season), but then there are those moments which are just stunning pieces of television and make everything all worth it. Show's pretty damn awesome in that, even seven seasons in, it can still give us those moments.
Mar. 31st, 2012 02:53 pm (UTC)
I think it's because it's so good that we have such high expectations for it. But it does provide these amazing brilliant moments that just are so high on the breathtaking scale, even between the disappointing episodes and letdown plot turns.

I've liked this season, primarily the first few episodes. I've liked them not being able to rely on angels, but I've missed Bobby like crazy.
Mar. 31st, 2012 07:57 am (UTC)
I was a little torn by last week's episode. I mostly enjoyed it. Approved of Cas returning but was a little confounded by both the point of amnesia (since that was quickly cured) and the Hallucifer issue being dealt with so neatly but again torn because hells yeah Cas needs to do some kind of penance here and this was his mess he created in Sam's head. I think I contented myself by saying well the problem is not really fixed yet - tonight's episode alluded to Sam being helped enough just to get back on his feet really and not like cured good as new.

To be honest (and I haven't really talked on this because I wonder how fandom really feels about her) the scenes that bugged me the most from last week were Meg's. I gotta say I don't feel as enamoured about this Meg as blonde Meg and I never have and I really felt awkward watching her scenes last week because I just felt I was watching a chick try her hardest to act. Her voice (and I know she's attempting to replicate Meg's way of talking, her nuances from first season and subsequent appearances) just grinded on me.

But then for tonight's episode I'm not really a fan of Garth at all...he does grow on you a little bit but I have to say he is never gonna grow enough for me to say oh yes let's have him back as a recurring character especially when you have the caliber the likes of Frank who had so many facets I was curious about, going wanting. But Garth was tolerable - I was far more fascinated by the drunk boys and the confrontations regarding the possibility of Bobby still being around and of course that last scene. Just brilliant - lifted the whole episode for me! Such few precious moments and yet they can impact on your whole impression of the episode. I love it. And you know what else I loved? I was struck by a real sense of the experienced professionalism of the boys working as a team here....possibly in contrast to Garth's less than stellar methods...but I just loved how I got a real feel of wow these boys have grown into men and into being such efficient and successful hunters the likes of which has seen them gain a reputation throughout the hunting world and the demon world as well. They're both just so - take it in stride, working in tandem, matter of fact, methodically and sometimes ruthlessly thorough, get the job done types now. I really liked that for some reason. And I
Mar. 31st, 2012 02:56 pm (UTC)
Oh, I agree with everything you said! Thanks for the reminder that they haven't complete air-waved Sam's issues, even though it's close.

I heard that the actress who played Meg hurt her back badly and is on steroids, causing the swelling. I also thought her performance wasn't great last night. It's too bad they couldn't bring back Meg the first. She was awesome.

And I loved the scenes between the boys for exactly the reasons you said - they are so in tune with each other. They like each other, like they just didn't for so many seasons. That little glass clinking moment...

Mar. 31st, 2012 07:58 am (UTC)
Ignore my email to you. I wanted to see what you thought, but I didn't come here at first. The ep is downloading while I type this, so I'll be able to watch it shortly.

I'm glad you're not breaking up with the boys. This old show has got some life left in it yet. :-)

(Sorry you're not feeling well!)
Mar. 31st, 2012 02:59 pm (UTC)
I'm all grrr at you for lurking! :-)

I agree with you about our show. I was just mad from last week. I'm actually kind of amazed and stunned you weren't, actually.

Yeah, this cold is kicking my butt. I worked a long day yesterday, came home and fell into bed and slept, and today, I'm worse. I think I'm staying home and writing. It's rainy out anyway. Let me know what you think about this one.
Mar. 31st, 2012 02:44 pm (UTC)
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Mar. 31st, 2012 03:27 pm (UTC)
I'm grabbing you by the ankles, girl, and keeping you with me till the end!! Agreed, it was all a bit of a blink and Lucifer's gone last week, but am I a terrible person that I don't mind Cas being the one with Stairway to Heaven in his head now??

I really enjoyed Garth and SamnDean getting angst-free drunk together.
Mar. 31st, 2012 03:31 pm (UTC)
See, I didn't have you last week to explain to me why it was going to all be okay! And I needed you, so I didn't wallow in Show-doubt and bitterness. :-)

Let's be the last ones left to turn out the lights. ♥
Apr. 1st, 2012 07:03 pm (UTC)
I do love me some Suits! But yeah, there is only one Supernatural! Til death do us motherf***ing part!
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